Not My Rezeki, Again

The evil side of me is shouting "It's not fair!!!!" but the good side of me is always reminding me that "it is just not your rezeki, Bihah".

But of course, most of the time the evil side got the better hand of me. This is so frustrating. At the very least, I think I deserve to be disappointed.

Up till right now I just can't figure out what I did wrong or what I didn't do. 

Do you have it to?

The kind of things that you can only mention to yourself. The stuff that you can't even imagine coming out of your mouth. The idea that will only swarm your mind and heart. You can't even bring it up to the closest people you have in life.

This is just another one of my rants, it'll go away but I just need to blow off some steam.

But seriously?

Ugh.

Ya Allah, please give me strength.

My Desktop Background

It is actually a big deal for me!

I use my laptop almost all the time so it is important that I choose the perfect wallpaper.

I'd like to think that I actually take nice pictures (I am sometimes full of myself haha) and this has got to be one of my favs! So pretty, ain't it? The photo was taken in St Ives, Cornwall with my iPhone 5S.

This has been my wallpaper for the past 6 months (I think) and I've been taking thousand of pictures since then but I just can't get myself to change the wallpaper. Trust me, I've tried but nothing seems to fit well. There's just something so calming about this picture or probably I'm just indecisive but I don't know... This looks nice right?

I was in Italy recently - you know, the land of gelato - and I've attempted so many ice cream shots like this but none was as perfect as this.

Oh how I wish the weather right now is like last summer in Cornwall. Bring me back! I woke up this morning to snow outside my window. GUYS, IT'S NOT YET DECEMBER.

Oh wet, gloomy ol' London. Spare me some heat!

I think I'm just gonna stick with this picture till the next perfect picture I could take.

#bihahtravels

So, quite sometime ago, I started this hashtag on my Instagram feed. It's just you know, for my own personal satisfaction. I've been doing some travelling here and there since I've been living and (I promise) studying in the UK.

Like how can you not right? Take out the Europe map and have a look for yourself how close the famous cities are from London. And let me tell you something, London itself has a lot lovely places to visit. Sometimes, when I post pictures in London I use this hashtag as well. Cause you know what they say,

 "Student on the weekdays, tourist on the weekend!"

As of right now, I already have 111 posts for this hashtag! Eeeep, so happy :)

It is something I just recently realised you know. My passion for travelling. It really opened up my mind. MashaAllah, I'm so grateful for being given the opportunity and the health to travel. I hope everyone gets the same chance as I do!

Obviously, money is the most important thing you need cause guuurll, travelling ain't cheap! I'm so lucky the last trip I went with my sisters was an all-expense-paid vacation by one of them. But normally,  if I'm travelling with my friends, I will use my own savings. And to have enough savings to travel, in all honesty, you have to live a CHEAPSKATE life guys cause that's what I do.

My mom and one of my sister always scold me for being so cheapskate but I have to! You have to prioritise where your money go. My first year in university, I walk everyday to classes to save money. I sometimes only eat when I have to cause eating=flying money. You need to have discipline!

But of course it's easier to say than do. Everyone has their own ways of doing thing and this is mine.

Anyway, now I'm seeing my sister and sister-in-law using the same hashtag (with their own names of course) on their Instagram. At first I was like, "Hoi tiru orang!!" but I'm just glad that they did. More travel pictures for me to look at!!

I'm so sorry if my travel pictures are annoying cause I take the 'Insta' from the Gram quite seriously. Hahahah. I sometime forgot to put hashtag on my pictures and my friends be like, 

"Oh no Bihah, you forgot something!!! #bihahtravels"

And when my first picture for a certain trip goes up some will go,

"Ahha, the hashtag is back!"

Don't I have the loveliest friends? They actually care about my hashtag :')

The most important thing I learned from travelling is how powerful Allah is. Sometimes I just can't believe my eyes and my pictures will never do enough justice! Cause indeed, Allah is the Almighty.

So, if you have time, type in the hashtag on Instagram and enjoy. I promise I will try to take nice photos!

PS : I really should start blogging my travels but guys it's so haaaaard. Just look at my pictures first okay? Haha.